Push away

I think for the past few weeks it seems like I'm pushing him away...

It's like millions of thoughts running through my mind and the thoughts make me push him away

I'm sorry :( Perhaps I'm just scare that I might love you more than you do.

if i push you away, please hold on.

please understand that i am only pushing you away because i desperately need to know that you care enough to hold on and fight for us, rather than drifting away. i just need to know that what i’m about to invest my feelings into is worth it, and that you will always hold on even if i tell you to let go before i allow myself to be completely vulnerable around  you.